fluttering bird 

a bird with eager wings flutters inside me

awaiting a clear sky to spread its wings

to soar high into the sky

wanting to explore the world on its own

oblivious to the perils of solo flight  

failed attempts could not dampen spirits

patiently braving the grey winter storms

singing a song it alone can decipher

to keep itself from withering

with renewed strength and vitality

knowing

well that one day will be 

freedom from the clouds of negativity 

away from its own captivity

to explore new horizons 

visit new possibilities

to leave behind the pain 

and to relive again

a bird with eager wings flutters inside me.....

Masquerade

Decorative colourful masks each a master piece
concealing scars hiding fears
tears and wounds 
how wonderfully painstakingly made 
to fool the world and create
a mystical artificial happiness
an artistic silky woven tapestry
concealing feelings unnecessarily
thinking we are the only ones suffering
failing to see the whole world is ailing
each one with a mask of its own
each one with wars to conqueror
enduring pains and sufferings
shed the mask be free 
to express joyous energy
let your self loose from the fake identity
live the life you are meant to live
expressing emotions is not weakness
hiding them though is madness
laugh without a care in the world 
smile despite tears
don't let any one judge you
for no one ever walked in your shoes
you  alone are incharge of your destiny

I am writting on my blog after a long break. I thought I would never be able to write but here I am at it again. I guess the passion for writing may  dwindle for a while but it can never go away, once a writer always a writer, the reason I decided to pen again is the sad demise of my father who I loved very much, I guess all daughters love their fathers and dote on them so nothing new about it but my father was a unique person and I am told that I not only look like him but also have his distinct character traits in me. Hence I felt the need to write what follows.....

to Abu with love

I took my first steps holding your hands, today I walk without you

saw the world through your eyes, now I yearn for your sight 

I long to hear your voice nudging me to be brave  

 your laughter echoes in my memories 

your smiling face your humility 

made me humble loving and caring

 you gave me my first driving lesson 

behind the wheel you looked magnificient

was always looking up to you for assurances

you taught me how to face lifes challenges with prayers and dignity

you made me the person I am today

 alas the day you went away I lost an integral part of me 

Yes I know you were very special for I have yet to see 

any one who lived his life quite so joyfully

 I feel so proud to be your daughter when I hear people say

 what a wonderful man you were 

I struggle to follow your legacy 

you bought smiles to the lives you touched wih your radiant qualities 

there are no words to tell you how very much I miss you 

for there is a void in my life which no one can fulfill

 there can be no one like my Abu

 

Load the ship and set out. No one knows for certain whether the vessel will sink or reach the harbor. Cautious people say, “I’ll do nothing until I can be sure”. Merchants know better. If you do nothing, you lose. Don’t be one of those merchants who wont risk the ocean.

- Rumi

I was going to tell you my story
but waves of pain drowned my voice.
I tried to utter a word but my thoughts
became fragile and shattered like glass.
Even the largest ship can capsize
in the stormy sea of love,
let alone my feeble boat
which shattered to pieces leaving me nothing
but a strip of wood to hold on to.
Small and helpless, rising to heaven
on one wave of love and falling with the next
I don't even know if I am or I am not.
When I think I am, I find myself worthless,
when I think I am not, I find my value.
Like my thoughts, I die and rise again each day
so how can I doubt the resurrection?
Tired of hunting for love int his world,
at last I surrender in the valley of love
and become free.